Is silence a bad thing? Is the sudden feeling of emptiness inside you fill you with dread?
No I am not PMS-ing I am simply stating my current position right now.
The feeling of dread and at the same time sadness of leaving something behind. Looking at you future and wondering where its gonna take you, imbibing where you currently are- it seems so surreal. But unfortunately / fortunately- that's reality. We have to face it at some point of time. Starting all over again maybe refreshing but at the same time hard- getting into the daily grind. Ah well not so easy.
Sometimes I feel so lost that I just drift away from here to someplace else. Its like a trance. Until someone brings me back to reality. Relationships strained over distances, family stopped calling (this is not necessarily a bad thing!). They all seem so far away in a different dimension of my life even though everyone is a phone call away. So they do tell me whats going on in their lives, but it feels so vague that-almost untrue or rather far away. Its this psychological thing i guess...
whew!
7 comments:
you always drifted away...
while your leaving behind a lot of things, new stuff is coming up, and thats always exciting
go read your independence post if you're feeling down about hostel life.. it'll remind you how much fun it is
Starting of Hostel life rey..its k..you'll kinda feel like that in the beginning.. din make any friends in the hostel??
if its not hostel life..then guess you are bored off your hook.. try some exploring..
adi this is completely natural n lik the others i m not gonna say don complain atleat u hav freedom, bcuz its d 1st time u ve been away on ur own 4 so long but then i m sure u ll get used 2 it, time heals ........ gawd may b this is my own depression talkin....lol
Liked reading your blog...got to see your blog through another blogger...hey trust me there are few more pople on this planet who feel the same....being lost in another world...building another world out of emptiness...just like that...people close to you are just a phone call away...but are they?
Good stuff...man
Keep blogging
Cheers
Leo
Change is hard...
When everything feels like the movies..
is this deeper than it seems? if so, welcome to the wonderful world of introspection. where the world does not care, you analyze why. where people look at the clouds, you look at the sky
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