Lessons learned

So I'm sure a lot of you who know me personally were expecting something to come up here... Over the past few months I've even heard the whole- "Why don't you blog about that ?" phrase. Quite frankly... I dunno how to put certain things in words. Certain things are just better left unsaid .

I am thankful to all my friends... really pulled through all those times when things got really hard. Thanks for being there, checking on me to see if I'm OK when sometimes I don't think I needed to be taken care of that much but thanks anyways.

Thank you for staying up with me at 3 am in the morning and just listening when I know you had better things to do like sleep. And yes... for just being nice . It did make a huge difference.

For the stupid mistakes I made and the times I've hurt certain people all I can say is... I do apologize. I know that's not enough but that's what I'm gonna start on.

To relationships gone bad.. sometimes things are just not meant to be. Coming into terms with that is taking time to settle.

I'm still having trouble understanding people but I do try.. sometimes...

The Rant

People around me seem to hate the word confrontation..

I mean if u really have a problem come and tell me cuz I'm sooooo sick and tired running after you all the fucking time trying to ask you "Wtf is wrong with u ?! Whats your bloody problem in life!"

But then again doesn't seem worth it, to bring it up even..

and since many if you who are reading this know exactly what I'm talking about.. please do enlighten me as to what is going.. I would sometimes like to know too!

Finally getting my phone back what a relief! Good things do happen when you least expect it.

But apart from all this... the other side is that this term seems to be playing out very interestingly.. I think the word is serendipity, looking for something else but accidentally stumbling on something better... I know it was an accident but I do know your secret now its just a matter of time before the wrong people find out! I know your reading this.... what can i say it was too good to pass up!

facing extinction

I'm standing on the sidewalk and searching, literally craning my neck, straining my eyes too either see one of those signs that read "local calls,std calls, isd calls, or those yellow little pay phones which use to be around a lot pre-cellphone days.

I realise that life's changed a lot after cellphones came into the picture and I literally dunno what life was like before.

Hmmm hard to imagine right? before text messaging, bluetooths, wasapp ,or even just making a simple call !

Damn it!

After like searching for a while i find one except that I don't have those one rupee coins just a couple of five hundreds and a hundred damn it!

Life is playing some cruel joke on my and laughing so hard the two most soon to be likely extinct things - pay phones and one rupee coins. I finally scrape the bottom of my purse to finally find what feels like those round little things which I seem to be having lesser and lesser of each day.

I take out a piece of paper on which I've scribbled a couple of contacts which I seem to be carrying around in my wallet these days...! damn you nokia! I WANT MY PHONE BACK!

I called the other day to ask whats up with my phone

its apparently under "observation period"! And I thought that was only a term doctors used to assess the progress or diagnose a disease!

I feel like I took my phone for granted all along!

Maybe I should go make up for that with a get well soon card and some flowers. I'm sure it would appreciate that.. maybe

Hola queridos lectores y lectoras . Esperamos que lo están haciendo bien.

OK so I'm learning Spanish.

I know that's kinda weird and slightly random and spontaneous but I'm kinda bored and i don't have a lot of options this week.

True ... you may ask me wtf?! your gonna be a doctor don't you have a lot more important subjects to study.

I might even be like sure I do actually medicine, surgery, orthopedics, obstetrics and gynaecology, pediatrics so when do i plan to do Spanish.

It actually happened at the bookstore the other day when i was browsing through some books and i found a book on easy Spanish I sat there and read that for hours until i finally realised i should actually seriously read this it might make a lot of sense. Studying something you don't need to or never have to. Hey it might sort of help if i ever go on a holiday to south America or even Spain.

That little streak of optimism.

oh yeah and some help with those initial lines http://www.spanishdict.com/translation

sayo naraaaaa

OK so its weird where this week i have really learnt that somethings from the beginning were way beyond my control and even if i tried it wouldn't be possible to change it for a fact!

I cant change the fact that some people just hate each other so much they don't even talk to each other or work it out. People can behave so totally immature sometimes.

And then life throws you one of those curve balls and your so unprepared that you just have to sit out and watch the sequence of events that follow without you being able to anything

about it.

I think I'm having a generally sucky week and over thinking this too much!

Plan B

Dear me,

Life doesn't always go the way you planned so always have a plan B.

Whats that I cant hear you?

Oh you mean you mean you really tried but couldn't think of a plan B?

Maybe if u started having a little less high expectations in life you could get by on starting off on that plan B...

things could work out anyways.

Who asked you to be unrealistic in the first place? That plan A was crap from the beginning!

grrrr...

OK so from now on please do have a plan B so your not left hanging at the last minute!

sincerely yours,

the lil voice in your head you never listen to!

ohhhhhh myyyyyyy gaaaawwwwwdddd!!!!

I have been looking over the past one year and reflecting over it and man has it been a roller coaster ride!

I'm sure change is a continuous thing and all of us go through with it and stuff but hmmmm if i was one year ago same time and someone gave me a brief run through of the year I would have probably told them to go to hell!

Things change people change life changes ... C'est la vie..

Happy new year everyone! To better beginnings and continuing prosperity..

I do sound like a 50yr old!

Deprivation

I was having the most beautiful dream I was in my hostel... i walk down to the mess hall and they are serving me three different cuisines Chinese , Italian, Indian... the champagnes flowing, the waiters in white looking very polished are serving the Hors d'oeuvres people are all dressed up, the food looking absolutely good theres penne, ravioli, cheese naan, dumplings, springrolls and theres actual basmathi rice... Ive never seen basmathi rice for a very long time!!!

The best part was the dessert, tiramisu, geltatos, sorbet, gajar halva and those little kajju burffi's i love sooooooo much!!! hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..... soooooooo good

And then i hear this voice... are you not feeling well? ohhhhh this food must be soooo good its making me .... sick ???

tap tap

Im having a very sudden awakening from this beautiful world... my ent professor standing over my table are u OK? are you not feeling well???

oh shit!!!

I've dozed off for the past one hour on my paper and theres a little pool of drool on my question paper too. No food.

Nikhils snickering at me.

Next question ... describe ostiomeatal complex.

Fhhhhhaaaaaacccckkkk!!!

Career goals

This past one week it has dawned upon me that I'm old...

I realised this when my cousin sent me an organic soy ink birthday card on which she'd written this elaborate letter on how she was attaining her career goals and also added how she was happy her little cousin (moi) was in pursuit of her MD dreams.

Hmmmm... u know in those career developmental programmes they keep asking you where you can see yourself two years from now, five years from now, ten years from now. And how the more specific your answers are the more oriented you are in achieving those goals.

I think I answered one of these questionnaires and I gave pretty specific answers. Five years down the line I see myself in med school, ten years down the line an accomplished doctor with an MD particularly psychiatry ( thought now i personally cant stand the subject)

Its got me thinking is that it?

that's all i want to achieve in my life i know I'm at this huge turning point in my life where I'm young i feel i should be wonder woman and do something for the betterment of the community and stuff by giving back to it but i wonder how i never mentioned those things in the questionnaire because right now the question goes back to where do i really see myself or am i just painting pretty pictures for myself and shouldn't I be doing just more than what I think I should be doing... I think I'm very confused ... I need time to sort out my isssues and fast!!

Its probably been a while since I put something up on this blog well I've been busy...

OK not really but something like it, doing productive things like

• losing weight,
• learning how to make the perfect chicken curry,
• kick boxing using a certain beloved someone as my punching bag,
• ophthalmology,
• figuring out why my power points keep running away from me (uggghhhhh!!!)
• usage if the term "yo" in sentences
• buying things which I will never require
• hangovers (boo)
• chocolate binging (followed by weight loss attempts)
• learning how to spell mayonnaise
• picking my nose
• sipping tea at waterfall

but as the great multitasker i am Ive been able to strike that balance make so time to post on this blog...

Soon I will post something interesting, and no its not a writers block!!!